Study Tapes, Buddy Bidding and Running in the Rain

i love you... shucks...


Running in the rain.... You will never understand..

Mark Arthur! Dahil batchie kita..aaralin ko ang study tape para sa iyo..congrats din pala!
Kitchie! Ang pansit..ang pansit...nawawala na... wah! Kinain nilang lahat!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stan! Tsk2... don't quit! I will take care of you and your friends sa org..ahaha..bawal lang ang pasaway ah.. I will be nice...

I'm tired..hinabol ko ba naman ang aking bro sa LRT Santolan trying to catch him amidst the frenzy of haggard commuters...it was a funny site for Sarah....

Ewan ko na.. Basta, masaya ako... walang kokontra.. :)

Tagaytay Trip, Videoke and my Happy List

i love you... shucks...



Roll call: Kaybol, Myra, Kitchie, Lea, James, Bajoy, Eioj, Tasha, Tin2, Grace, Natz, Adrian, Jonelle and Ken (MTV Supahstars).

I am happy and energized for the week.

Just got home from our Tagaytay “misadventure”. It was raining cats and dogs, so basically, we saw the Picnic Grove “in a different light” (in a very foggy way to be exact). It took us around 3 hours to get to Kitchie’s place in Silang (asking for directions, wrong turns, overtaking, waiting and stop-overs included). Nahati kami sa dalawang sasakyan, van nina myra at isuzu nina Lea. Dun ako sa isuzu nina Lea kasi wala namang makakausap yung blockmate ko na si Jonelle.

Went to Starbucks along Petron SLEX and Tagaytay. Nagsawa ako sa hot choco, at ang ironic ata na mag-Starbucks sa Tagaytay. Kaysa view ang makita ko – puro ulap.

We had breakfast, lunch and merienda at Kitchie’s place. Sulit na sulit ba naman ang trip na ito. Galit si Kitch sa amin. Pinarusahan tuloy kami na kumain lang ng kumain. All I could say: Pwede na ba Kitch tumira sa inyo? (kahit pansit na lang kainin ko.. thanks raw sabi nina mama at papa..sarap raw ng pinauwi mong pansit)

Went videoke singing with everyone. Good thing Jonelle and Ken are MTV Supahstar Finalists, so basically, game kumanta tong mga to. Kahit naman yung mga blockmates/orgmates ko eh (we sang Sasakyan Kita – though I’m not really into novelty songs, She Bangs, Noypi, Esem atbp). Jonelle sang The Hurt and Wherever You Will Go, while Ken sang Narito, Lately etc. I sang Through the Fire, You Won’t See Me Crying with Irene and Better Days. Basta.. masaya.. sana nandoon kayo!

(as a continuation of my earlier blog, I realized that I missed singing so much and I felt happy na nakakanta ako kahit sa videoke machine lang… sniff…)

Sa lahat ng saying ito isa lang yung problema: soaking wet ako paguwi ng Antipolo. Di kasi ako sinundo ng tatay ko. Pero baha na kasi everywhere. Well, di naman na-spoil yung pagkagana ko na gumawa ng 3 papers para sa classes ko tomorrow.

My Greatest Frustration. Natz and Kitch: pareho lang tayo ng sitwasyon. Kitch, challenge sa atin one sem na lang tayo, si Natz may one year pa maghanap! So, anon a mastah plan? Thesis muna ba anak?

As to keep myself from collapsing into bouts of “sadness” I have formulated my arbitrary “Happy List” . The list consists of things I feel happy about. (events,things,people etc). They are listed in no particular order:


Ice cream, chocolates and pizza
Blog Writing and Internet Surfing
Tuesdays
Pysch Class
My blockmates, orgmates and friends
Videoke Singing
Shawarma Rice
Market! Market!
Lycra Shirts
The one thing I can never have… and it’s ironically true.


To Dose: I miss you!
To my UP friends: Thank you!
To arcangel: You’re right… Thanks for making me snap back to my senses.
To mokujin: Thank you for making me “Wonder”. YOU are my bestfriend.

Boys Night Out

i love you... yun lang..

TAGAYTAY TRIP! HERE "I" COME! Gusto mo sumama? Message me!

Earlier this morning, I was interviewed by some DLSU students for their Filipino project. They were looking for people who like to join contests on TV or has at least joined once in their lives. So I pretty much fit the description.

Met up with Marlon (Kuya Larry’s cousin –anyway, they were both good friends) at a Mc Donald’s near our area. We were to meet with his DLSU friends at Katips – probably around 9-ish am.

The DLSU people were late, so Marlon and I decided to hang out at Starbucks. Good thing he bought me a drink. I was dying to have the limited Toffee Frap that my blockmate was raving about. We talked about old times, my academic and not-so academic career, until finally, the DLSU people arrived.

I met Gladys and Precious and this guy classmate of theirs whose name I cannot remember. The interview was easy. I just had to answer a few questions and sing a few lines. The interview was probably finished in less than 30 minutes.

After that we all decided to chat for a little while. This was when I found out that Gladys happened to be Jonelle’s bestfriend from Masci!
(note: Jonelle is my orgmate former blockmate. He is now known as KOK in MTV Supahstar, and you’ve probably seen his face in one of the billboards in EDSA.)
So Gladys and I chatted, dropped names of some Masci people and went laughing hysterically about some things. (wink..)

I had to leave them soon though. I had a wedding to go to and I had to be at our choir’s conductor house in Marikina at around 1230nn.

Hay, dumating ako on-time. Natawa nga lang ako sa sarili ko. Paano yung kasal sa UP Parish! Hay, di man lang napalayo. So, nagpractice na kami. Buti naman nakumpleto na kami. Ako at si Mela for Soprano 1, Val at Melai sa Soprano 2, Pau at Vina para sa Altos.
Well, the wedding was suppose to start at 3pm, pero alam mo naman ang Pinoy. Stereotypical man ako o hindi, pero late eh! 415pm na nagstart! (OC pa naman ako sa oras..) Dahil sa late, I was able to ask a friend to drop by the chapel, however di ko man lang siya nakausap! Hay, I really felt bad..parang ako na nga yung nag-invite tapos ala, di ko man lang nakausap. (kakausapin na sana KITA after ng first song, kaya lang di na kita nakita…naku, sorry po.. binabasa mo naman blog ko.. kaya sorry po talaga.. ha? Peace tayo!)


Got home around 8pm. Super congested traffic! Wala na nga akong masakyan..
Dapat aalis pa ako ngayon. Pero yung lakad naging boys night out bigla.. Hay, babae po ako eh…

Bakit wala kayong lahat??

Catharsis

i love you... shucks...

Happy Birthday Kitchie!

tomorrow I am: going to katips for a 9am interview
a wedding singer at the UP Parish

Singer friends have been calling me up for the past week. The constant and redundant question was: “Kumakanta ka pa ba?”

A good friend and professor saw me the other day from my Psych class. He asked the same question.

I said no. I don’t do it professionally anymore for reasons that I have Comm Res to finish and I really can’t focus on singing and studying at the same time. I had to give up one. And sadly, I gave up one passion. Singing.

It may sound absurd, but singing and studying are both my passion. I feel a satisfying rush whenever I engage in these “activities”

I’ve been singing since I was 5. I’ve been good with academics at the same stage. For the earlier part of my life, these two have been inseparable

I have no intentions to sound proud, but I have excelled in both fields. During my high school years I have been an honor student while balancing my singing career. I could say that I was reaching the peak. I had singing engagements left and right, a very active social life and good grades and trophies under my belt. But all these changed during sophomore year.

I didn’t have the time to do both things. I didn’t suck with time management. It was just that 24 hours was not enough to hold all my activities. All the stress had finally taken its toll on my body. I was sick for 3 weeks.

I also had to wear braces. Nobody likes singers with braces. In this capitalist world, even talent has to sell and rake in the money. Talent is just a part of package, the sad part – sometimes people have to be more than beautiful. This wasn’t going to work for me.

I was in a relationship that wouldn’t let me be me. I was happy yet not content. Inconsistent – yes. But sometimes “love” works in mysterious ways (ehehe)

I had to decide on what should I prioritize first. And the answer was clear (back then…) Finish school.

My career would not go anywhere as long as I had this metal things stuck to my teeth

After a year and half, I look back. I don’t know if I should regret things. There are things I couldn’t have possibly learned if I was still living in that previous lifestyle. But I left my other passion. Sayang.



Snap. Snap.

Sabi nila sayang. I was near the top of everything. I had developed my own style as such an early age. I was good at it, and I knew it.

Practice makes perfect. Practice makes perfect performances. We’ve all heard that phrase sometime in our lives. And yes, it makes sense. So, now you do the math. What happens if I don’t sing (continuously and professionally) for the next year and half?

I want and need to sing. I love music. I enjoy the attention (di ako nagmamalinis). I enjoy seeing people smile. I like making people happy. I like singing wherever, may it be in church, in the shower or whatever. My reasons for singing may be selfish or not, but it runs in my veins. And it will forever run in my veins.

(maybe…)

In the Blog Mood

i love you... shucks...

I am in a “blog-write” mood today.

Today, there was a transport-strike. I was not in the mood to go to school today. However, fearful of incurring an absence for my STS class, I still decided to go to school Good thing, a friend informed me that classes were already cancelled for the rest of the afternoon. (kaya lang… I was already on my way..hehe)

When I got home I decided to finish clipping the newspaper ads that I will be needing for my thesis. It was pretty tiring to do, and this made me fall asleep.

After dinner time, I resumed clipping the ads and came across an article that I would like to share.


Broken Silence
by Oliver M. Tuazon (Manila Bulletin, October 23, 2004)

People change by dint of affection.

They say that each family has its own black sheep. I find that unfair. It makes parents compare their children subconsciously and label the least attractive child as black sheep.

It is true that some children bring “shame to the family name.” It is a complex issue where much of the blame falls on the child. Might It not rather also be the fault of the parents and the other members of the family? Lets look at eh story of Mr. Black Sheep.

He was his school principal’s favorite. Fist fighting was his favorite sport and his favorite hobby was making girls cry. He liked going home early. Well, early in the morning of the following day, normally after a drinking spree with his barkada.

In his worst moment of being ‘under the influence’, he could barley stand up; he was literally vomiting his guts out. But he felt he had to go home – creeping. The reaction of his father that morning changed him the rest of his life. Instead of the usual reproach, his father helped him up and made him hot porridge and black coffee.

While eating, he promised himself, “I will never get drunk again”

Truly, people changes not so much with the corrections and scolding we give them, but more with the love and affection we show them.

While love is in the will, affection involves much of human affectivity – the realm of one’s feelings and emotions. Hence, for one to give authentic affection, one has to love first, since willing is a much higher human faculty than feeling.

I am not saying we should avoid correcting mistakes. Its is not just a duty of love, but of justice as well, to correct a spouse, a child, a brother, a sister, a friend, and even one’s parents. But we should learn to correct people with and out of love.

I am looking forward to go to school tomorrow. I’m getting a couple of CDs I asked Tasha to buy for me: Bridge (which includes the song “Kahit Na”) and Sponge Cola (which has “Lunes” and “Jeepney”).

I want more pizza.. (wink wink)

Happy Birthday Ma. Krizette Hermoso! (my beloved thesis partner!) eheheh.. :)

Pizza!

i love you... shucks...

Attended a talk called "Religion in A Box" by Dr. Pernia. I must have read her paper on this for the nth time, but its ok. It is quite "amusing" and enjoyable to hear her talk anyway. However, I was an hour early for her talk.. I thought it would start around 9am, but it started around 10am. The CMC Audi was pretty much packed... SRO (heheh..reminds me of a friend..)

Had lunch at Pizza Hut with two really "great" friends..ahahah..! buwiset..cnt upload pics... :(
nabusog ako just to let you know..ahaha...

Update my blog again later... watchout..ahahah..

i love you... shucks... (natulog ka naman ata eh...)

Pai! I miss you too..
to my cousin Ches.. Uwi ka na sa Pinas...

Well, pagod ako. Pagod ako sa byahe at slow traffic nung pauwi ako. Pagod na ko magbasa ng 200 page book for an elective. Pagod na ako mag-text. Pagod na ako magturo ng "A Whole New World" sa aking brother na kakanta nun sa talent show sa Mr. Nursing sa UE. Pagod na ako mag-isip. Ang daming problems for thesis... Daming concerns sa org, at I need a SOCIAL life (di naman yung social-drinking life ah..heheh..)
Feel ko, deadkid ako ngayon.. sufir deadkid.

At least mayroon kaming Tagaytay trip sa Monday! (sana matuloy..pag natuloy, magpo-post ako ng pictures) That trip will serve as a much needed break from all the frenzy ng sem na ito. Bonding activity na din with my orgmates, and one great post-celebration for Kitchie's birthday!

Can't wait...

+++++++++++++
Jown and Kitchie!!! Advance Happy Bday!

tinatamad ata ako...

i love you... shucks...

had dinner at Congo Grille Ortigas yday.. :) yum. yum.

I'm having problems doing the content analysis of the print ads for my thesis..(where is help when I need it?)

Right now, I'm contemplating on how I am suppose to rip 25 audio cds and convert them into mp3 format while doing my thesis... ( si kuya Lem kasi.. tsk2.. kundi ka lang favorite cousin ko..tsk2)

Ok, I'm not in the mood to "blog-write" today...

Hi to all my friends! mwah! mwah! mwah!

MWAH!

i love you... shucks...

Hello to everyone! Sana may following na ako sa blog ko..ahaha (just kidding..)

The TAG Board doesn’t work, but still leave me a message or two through the comments feature… ok?

Feeling bad because I wasn’t able to see GLOSS , a fashion show of my org UP Samaskom. Heard free drinks were flowing everywhere, and an alumni of my org was feeling bad coz we didn’t go. But I really had so much to do (I’ve got a thesis to take care of, and I didn’t have a ride home)

Passed the final draft of our thesis proposal. I was up all night editing stuff, yet there was still something wrong with it. I have the weekend to fix it though.

Saw my friends today, and I was actually feeling friendly to everyone. I was too sociable, saying hi to everyone I know. Even though my thesis sucked, I was in a pretty good mood today.

I was really energized after our Psych class activity. It was nice to get to meet new people and talk to them. (thanks Sir Eric…) It was nice making Pizza out of crayons..ahaha….

Had pistachio ice cream with a friend and Rodic’s with my thesis partner (yum2..I’m going to miss UP when I graduate..)

To Kitchie, kaya natin ang thesis while fulfilling our greatest frustrations.
To DOSE, where are you guys? I miss you all!
To my best friends, Mwah!
To Marinduque Mafia, kidnap me!
To “mokujin”, thanks for my yearbook write-up…
To my other friends... naka Globe na naman ako!

... :(

i love you... shucks...

Hectic.

Went shopping with mama (thank you for mothers…) over the extended weekend. Had choir practice for a wedding on the 27th.

My mom said she may lose her job soon.. (sigh… now I feel guilty, depressed..) This means I have to work earlier than expected and this doesn’t sound good for our household’s future..

Went to school early. False alarm. Akala ko people were already setting up booths for the org fair at CMC. Turns out only one org did. Geesh, lost 2 hours of sleep because of that. So I just read some handouts and ate lunch with a friend.

Only had two classes today. I was late for my last class coz my friend and I couldn’t find any parking space at AS because Upsilon was sponsoring a soccer tournament thing… . Got “bad” seats at the back of the room.

Became the intervener sa LQ ng friends ko.. hope all turns out well…

I’m not ok… So not..

random lang... post ko lang..

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with some highschool friends..ala kaming magawa nung sembreak eh...

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First Week of the Second Semester…

i love you... shucks...



Excited. I was excited to start this sem. I have 5 courses to take: Psychology 150 (Personality), Anthro 185 (Intro. to Phil. Culture), STS, CommRes 180 (Management Comm..etc) and CommRes 200 (Thesis). I do have a pretty messed-up class schedule, but it’s ok. At least I get to spend more time in school and hang-out with friends.

Psych class was okay, saw a block mate I haven’t seen for so long because he shifted out. First day, I misplaced my wallet. I “mysteriously” lost it. (someone saw my wallet at the PHAN waiting shed?) Almost had to go through the tiring process of securing a new form 5 and ID from the OUR (well, at least a good friend “sympathized” with me). The PHAN janitor returned it to me the following day.

I think I’ll enjoy Anthro class. My classmates seemed friendly and the teacher was no terror. Just faced with a dilemma on the Sagada trip or the long final exam.. hehe..

Was lucky that my STS class was under Dr. Arcilla (the TBA was freaking me out). Didn’t get to meet new people though, seemed like people were already in “groups”. After class, me and friends (car pool buddies) went to the mall. I got my picture taken and went grocery shopping.

I haven’t been able to visit my blog for a while, my dial-up (yup, dial-up) is busted, and the connection is as slow as it could go.

Anyway, I am psyched to start my thesis. Wait – I’ll take that back. I have a pile of broad sheets waiting to be clipped.

me and my brother!

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i'm still waiting and wanting..

Note: I'm not caught up in some fantasy or fairy tale world, but I call myself "sleeping beauty".

Roll Call:
Ali, Ces, Che, Jen, Kay, Sarah, Sandz, Pai and Yos (o sige..si Ambo din..ahaha)

I was with my high school friends last Saturday. We BARELY see each other. My high school barkada is “so” academic oriented, na medyo “acads” muna tayo dear. School and grades has always been a priority. Minsan nakakatampo, pero ganun talaga – not everyone has the luxury of time to have fun, minsan ang dami lang talagang responsibilities.

Si Pai puyat! (hihi…) Sarah was still the “talk of the town” because of her “intriguing boyfriend” Joseph. Sandz was still skinny and “gorgeous” as usual, pero niloloko siya ni Ambo na “nagbabato”. Che was still my “Katie Holmes” and finally I saw Yos again after battling it out with UP PT! Cesang was still the “one friend I can never compare to anyone” and Ali was still the breath of fresh air. At siyempre, si Jen (the she-devil) na miss na miss ko na.. aba, nakababa na sa bundok ng Los Baños!

We ate, rented movies, hanged out at Pai’s apartment and went to Eastwood to send Pai off to work. We had McDo at Eastwood (which is weird… since there were other food options). We all had this craving for McDo even after getting sick watching “Super Size Me” (the film where this guy had nothing but McDonald’s food for 30 freaking days… sick… really sick..) After realizing how “damaging” fast food was, we still got hungry. (si Sandz kasi.. hey, I didn’t super size anything, and I only had 100 bucks left in my pocket). After going to Eastwood, joyride courtesy of Neph’s (Pai’s friend) “Expe”

Bottom Line: Had a great time! And my wallet is loaded with new snapshots! J

Okay, sabi ko bottom-line, pero hindi pa talaga – parang I just wished we had more time to talk.. I still wish na I know them now as much I knew them back in high school… Oo, close talaga kaming lahat, pero siyempre, things change.. Change is the only thing constant in this world, even relationships change for both the better and the worse diba.

Sa DOSE: I just miss you guys!

questions I've been asking myself.. (and now i feel dumb)

i love you... shucks...

“Why do you act this way? You’re so cold… Like I don’t know you anymore…”

“Have you lost interest in me? Or maybe – I just don’t know it – that I’ve lost interest in you?”

“I love you, but why do I complain?”

“I know you do love me, (I shouldn't even ask you this question...) - or do I just know different?”

“Why is it that I have to cry so hard… everytime…?”

“I’m stubborn… and I love too much..”

bagot na bagot.... bakit ganun? the day won't end..

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of heart "throbs"...and head "aches"..

i love you... shucks...

i will forever say I love you... darn..

... and I'm suffering from insomnia.. and you're sound asleep..ahahah..

All for One, and One for All (and One Size fits all for James)

Roll Call: everyone lining up for a thesis adviser!

5:30 AM – While most people would just be starting to get up at this early morning hour, I was sitting at the steps of the CMC lobby, being the 16th person and the 8th team to arrive.. (mala-amazing race) to battle it out to get the much "coveted" thesis adviser!

Had breakfast at Mcdo Katips with Lea, James, Kitch, Myra and Irene... James was complaiming how pinoys always use the one size fits all policy (he has a problem with Pinoy Sizes since he's not pinoy anyway).

I'm uber happy with my grades...and I am so happy with my morning..although I was not looking my best..ahahah..

Didn't get Ma'm San Joaquin as a thesis adviser (althoug thankyou for giving me a 1 hihi..) got Ma'm San Pascual instead (ok lang..magaling din siya sa quanti...)

Well, to Irene and Ina, and to my beloved thesis partner, Kitchie..this one's for you! All for One, and One for All! :0

on a 20 peso budget

i love you... shucks...

November 1 – All Saints Day

Life most Filipinos, we visited our “dead” at the cemeteries. Ever since I was little, we usually visit the cemetery in Malabon first, before we got to Bulacan. But this year it was the other way around. My dad wanted to got to Bulacan first to avoid the possible congested traffic flow at eh North Luzon Expressway. To do this, we left our house in Antipolo at 5:30 am (shucks)

I have so many relatives in Bulacan. My father did come from a rather large family, but aside from that, there is this rather large “Bulacan” network of aunts and uncles, cousins from the nth degree, nieces and nephews – oh, and yes, the even more complicated network of my father’s neighbors, classmates and friends.

To cut it short, meeting and greeting everyone during All Saints Day is “complicated” for me.

I’m not really complaining here. It is just quite overwhelming to try to remember everyone in less than 5 minutes (hehehe). I do like meeting people – and I do believe that there is a constant need fro person to expand his or her network – but during November 1 – everything becomes “ritualistic”. People ask you really generic questions like “how old are you” or “what school and course are you taking up again” even to the sometimes annoying question of “do you have a boyfriend already” to “kamusta ka na nga ba” with the person asking me that looking bored to death with the question.

Well, I do like Nov. 1. I get to hang out with my cousins, see my “pamangkins”, gossip, go “guy window-shopping” (well, I only look..nothing bad or flirty). I like eating “isaw” and fishballs at the cemetery. I like “scramble” (yes, it is the pink, crushed ice drink or smoothie with choco syrup, skim milk and sago balls that we all had sometime in our childhood) even if it means me increasing my chances of getting a really bad stomach ache (READ: Amoeba Galore)

I enjoy praying for the dead. It actually helps me reflect and realize the there is so little time and yet so much good (and yes, bad) that I can do for the world – so much love and kindness that I can show (mushy, but freaking true).

Now, for the Malabon part of my cemetery visit, I look forward to seeing a good friend from highschool. And no, he is not dead – it only happens that our dead lies in the same cemetery. We’ve been meeting there (no, not for a date) for the last 5 years, but we broke the “tradition” this year since my family and I arrived really late this time. I like going to Malabon to see my beautiful niece Chloe who totally ahem.. adores me as well. She loves to play peek-a-boo with me, she even says “tago na tita kay” so I’ll play with her.

One troubling thought though, enters my mind regarding all this cemetery visits. What happens to the dead if the people who visit them die as well? Isn’t it sad to have no one remember them…. Call me “praning’ but I just have these random thoughts that enter my mind…aheheheh….